lostinsidemythoughts

Tomorrow I am going to Shanghai to visit my dad for 10 days.. so i wont be submitting anything new til i get back! :heart:

Usually If I feel this way, I would submit a new photo or perhaps painting… a manipulation.. something to keep me occupied and distracted. Yes, it would be dark and yes it would be depressing .. but it would at least be something! I would find a way to turn my sadness into something creative.. I always do. But now I just feel empty inside. Lost, more lost than I have felt in a very long time. Alone. If there was a way of expressing my feelings through art.. I would definitely do it but now, honestly, my thoughts cant be described in pictures, drawings, paintings.. not even words.

Last night I couldnt sleep.. I ended up working some new stock photos to keep myself somewhat busy.. finally...around 5ish (after drinking some chamomile tea and seriously considering banging my head against the wall) I finally managed to fall asleep. I forced myself to get up at 11:00 this morning to prevent the same thing from happening tonight. I now determined that the amount of coffee I drank today can not be very healthy. Since the day I was born I can not remember EVER pissing like I have today hehe (even my whole life combined!!) :giggle:   ...yea..very useless information, I know.. heh So anyway.. Ill get to the point of this jou